It’s been awhile since I last wrote. I apologize for disappearing. The truth of the matter is, there’s several reasons behind my disappearance. One contributing factor has been that life just gets plain old hectic and crazy and I lose time. I have been struggling to incorporate this specific passion and purpose in with the remainder of my daily activities. In addition to this challenge, I’ve been faced with a few difficulties in response to the practice of building on entries within my earlier book Rise Higher-Daily Reminders for the Rising Self. I believe this is because I’ve been called to action to embrace, embody, and set free my authentic self. And so the journey has begun again.
The irony of walking through this calling has been that I really, truly have come back to the place I began. I’m coming back home to me. All the way to my roots, my core. In reality, I’ve never strayed far. I never turned away from Self, I just silenced it. I won’t go into details of my story here, but the bottom line, is that I spent many years denying Self in order to belong in the world. And I’m having a great time finding the bits and pieces of myself again. It’s obviously not all rainbows and butterflies. There’s some harsh and painful truths to face. However, today I get to revisit and experience these truths with courage instead of fear. After all, that’s what my experiences were all about. They were meant to break down my walls and bust open my heart with an unconditional love for Self and others. I’m not perfect at it, and I’m no saint. But I’ve sent my intention to heal and to rise into a Higher Self that is focused on service to all creation. I’ve been walking this path for the last three years, after experiencing what I like to call My Moment of Destruction. During this time, something snapped, and my path was going to go one of two ways. Either I was going to shut down all together, or I was going to rise up. By grace, I began to rise.
During this time of healing, I wrote Rise Higher and published it. Revisiting it here and there and determining that I wasn’t it’s biggest fan. Which is not unusual for me, but I was able to see exactly what I didn’t like about it. First, it was too reserved. This was because I naturally had fear when I decided to publish my first book that was based on the lessons and healing that I’d experienced through the years prior. Understandable, but not exactly in alignment with self. So, I decided to elaborate further on earth entry through this page. But alas, I found further discrepancies between my previous writings and my current beliefs and practices. Namely, the concept of destroying the ego, and a few others. This is great news! It means I’m growing and evolving and coming further into alignment with Self and Source. I still have not reconciled the act of setting boundaries and the act of unconditional love. I fully believe in both simultaneously, but I haven’t clearly wrapped my head and heart around the process. More to come in that arena.
Another aspect of this sharing is that I do not wish to speak from a space of certainty and absolute. We’re all constantly growing and evolving, or at least I hope so! My hope is that we walk together, side by side, as we travel in wonder and enchantment down our paths back home. Rising in consciousness and lighting the way, hand in hand.
I will only be building on Rise Higher from time to time in the future, with regular postings as I’m able. However, in the meantime, I’m with you in spirit and taking each step together.
Love and light your way today and always,